So let me start out
by telling you a little story about a girl…for the sake of this tale, let’s
just call her Maci. Once upon a time Princess Maci (Did I forget to mention she
was a princess?.…I did? Welp, now ya know. Now get back to the story!) started
a blog. She rarely wrote on her blog. The end.
Hey now…I never said
it was going to be a good story.
Sheesh!
Just gimme a little
bit of time to redeem myself!
Let’s start over.
So there’s this girl
named Maci. She’s going to college and taking 14 credits – not too bad. She has
a tendency to be messy and sometimes you’ve gotta keep an eye on her because
she can be a little clumsy. Maci procrastinates and she doubts herself
sometimes. She stays up past her bedtime and she worries about little things. Really
she’s a pretty typical, ordinary girl. BUT…she really is the daughter of a
King. And recently He’s spent a lot of time making sure she knows it.
I was on my off-track
semester during the winter. At first it was pretty great to get to stay home
and not go to school, but it got kinda boring and lonely pretty fast. It felt
weird to never be on campus, and I felt a little separated from everyone taking
classes. Towards the end of the winter semester I was getting so excited to get to sign up for classes
and get back into the swing of things! I needed to have a reason to leave my
apartment and talk to people again. I needed to get out of my slump!
Then a week or two
before the Spring semester, I started to get a little nervous and stressed out
about getting my classes set up, but I was handling it pretty well. I didn’t
have finals to worry about, so I was able to keep pretty calm. Then as a way to
add just a little too much extra salt, I got called as a Relief Society
President for my ward. At the age of 19. …and I stress about little things.
I switched pretty
quickly from ‘dealing with it’ to ‘good heck I’m glad I get to go home for a
week so I can try to get my mind off of things.’
That week break gave
me exactly what I’d been needing for a long time. A mind reset.
On one day I got to go
back to Soda to see teachers and friends for a day, and then I got to spend the
night with my sister, Emma-Leigh.
That night while the
two of us were just casually chatting with each other, I completely broke down
in tears. I’d been feeling overwhelmed and bottling it up – which is never a
smart idea. Do you know what happens when I bottle things up? ….things go boom.
Just like that.
So like I said
before, it’s usually not a good outcome when I keep things to myself and then
explode like that…but this time it was actually just what I needed. Emma-Leigh let me
cuddle up with her on the couch, and then she just held me as I cried. I’m
pretty sure that’s the first time that I completely let myself go for quite a
while. That night I was left feeling pretty exhausted, but the next morning I
felt invigorated. I can’t really put into words exactly what happened, but I
was able to see things so much more clearly! I knew things would be OK, and I
was right.
Within just the few
short weeks since all of this happened, I’ve become so much happier and more
positive. I’m more grateful than ever that I am the daughter of a Heavenly
King. Yeah, sometimes the homework still piles up, or the little things
frustrate me, or I feel pretty small.
BUT
Sometimes you visit
your hometown and get welcomed back with open arms. Sometimes you get an
unexpected call from a best friend just because she’s on her lunch break. And
sometimes your professor remembers your name after only 2 days of class.
Sometimes your college family makes you laugh until your sides ache.
Sometimes you get an unexpected scholarship, and sometimes you get to have some really great conversations with your coworkers. And sometimes your best friend/sister falls in love.
Sometimes the message in church is meant just for you. And sometimes you get the chance to visit with an old professor. And sometimes when you take a little step back, you realize you’re not alone.
Life’s good.
Sometimes you get an unexpected scholarship, and sometimes you get to have some really great conversations with your coworkers. And sometimes your best friend/sister falls in love.
Sometimes the message in church is meant just for you. And sometimes you get the chance to visit with an old professor. And sometimes when you take a little step back, you realize you’re not alone.
Life’s good.
