And My Heart Melted

So, I was looking through some old photos on my phone this week. I look at my photos often enough that they don’t really seem all that old to me. Even though time keeps passing my brain always says, “Oh yeah! That was fun! That was just last semester. Next photo. Oh yeah! That was fun! That was just last semester….”

So I just go on with my life believing (and sort of hoping) that time just stands still. Then I noticed that some of the pictures I was looking at are already a year old…a year seriously just FLEW by.

What really surprised me was when I realized that it’s been just over a year now since I had this little bugger for a week while Mommy and Daddy were out of town.

It seems like it was seriously maybe just a month or two ago tops.

I remember it just like it was yesterday! How cliché, right?!

I swear, though. That week happened yesterday…and that week was one of the best of my life. Maybe it’s easier to say that because time has passed…? I mean, it was definitely hard.

Sometimes I just didn’t want to play with cars anymore.

Sometimes I just wanted to sit and play the piano without sporadic harmonies being added by his little fingers. Sometimes I didn’t want to wake up when he wanted to wake up. Sometimes I didn’t want to watch Up for the 8^th time or Planes for the 11^th time.

Sometimes I just got sick of the judging stares of people around town because all they saw was a 19 year old (that looks like a 16 year old) carrying around a 3 year old. I repeat…it was definitely hard.

But I got so much in return. I got so much in return. Because I worked through the rough moments, I got the good times too….

This little man gave me so much love.

For that week it didn’t matter if I was busy, because he was hungry and wanted s’ghettios.

It didn’t matter if I was at work, because he was sad and needed a hug.

It didn’t matter if I was ready to go to bed, because he was and he wanted me there. He wanted me there. And when he fell asleep with his arms around my neck, my heart melted.

I felt so much love.

I felt so much happiness.

I felt so lucky.

And I can’t believe that that’s what I get to look forward to in my future.